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How do you spend your time?  I expect most people will think about their job, be it at an office, caring for children, parents,  or perhaps it will be taking care of yourself if you are ailing.  Some of you will think to yourselves about how you play.  Your hobbies, your avocations - which may be spending time with friends, producing some particular craft, a sport etc.

But how many of you are not quite sure how to spend your time?  Be honest now.  How many of you go to work, not sure if this is the true path you should be on.  How many of you don’t know how to spend your leisure time?  And how many of you even think about the passage of time in some accute manner? 

This may be wrapped up with one’s particular sense of mortality.  I doubt I spent a single minute ruminating how I spent my time in my first 2 decades of life.  I do think it started to creep in by my third.  and definitely this ruminating reared it’s head by my fourth decade.  I’m past those decades now (nevermind by how much).  But for sure, I now worry about how I spend my time.  I’m particulary, of late, upset when I have some leisure time and I’m not sure what I want to do with it.  If I fill it up with tasks, no matter the value and no matter the hardship or pleasure it brings, the sense of satifaction is never quite determined before the time is spent.  I tend to do things (or not) and then, when it is over, decide if it was really “grand” or an unfortunate waste. 
This is surely some form of anxiety (and perhaps there is some name one of you professionals can give for this - by all means leave your comments).  Is this you?   Let us know.